The 30 Day Challenge

So, it's the end of July already, and a new month is about to begin. And that means two things: I've been blogging for almost a month now *fanfare* and I'm about to start the 30 challenge. Yey! :D So you might be thinking, "Here goes Leigh Ann again, starting something that she probably won't finish". Well, this time this is gonna be different. If my best friend can do it, so can I! I'll be going online everyday for the month of August (alright, 30/31 isn't so bad) and I'm gonna be posting about whatever is assigned for that particular day. And because I'm nocturnal, I decided that I'm gonna do most of my posting AFTER midnight, that way I won't forget it.

Here's a summary of what you're gonna be hearing from me for the rest of the month:

Day 1: A Picture Of The City You Were Born In

Day 2: A Picture Of Your Favorite Animal

Day 3: A YouTube Video

Day 4: A Song You Want Played At Your Wedding

Day 5: Ideal Future Career

Day 6: Your Favorite Quote

Day 7: Your Favorite Food and Recipe 

Day 8: Picture Of The Last Place You Visited 

Day 9: A Photo I Took 

Day 10: A Silly Photo Of Me 

Day 11: Name Of Your Elementary School 

Day 12: A Photo Of Me Taken Recently 

Day 13: A List of All The Places You’ve Lived 

Day 14: Your Day, In Great Detail 

Day 15: A Picture Of You And Your Friends 

Day 16: Your Best Friend 

Day 17: A Hobby Of Yours 

Day 18: A Place You’ve Never Visited But Want To 

Day 19: A Picture Of You When You're A Baby 

Day 20: You Goals For This Month 

Day 21: A Place You See Yourself In 5 Years 

Day 22: What Would I Find In My Bag 

Day 23: Favourite Baby Names 

Day 24: Your Personal Collection 

Day 25: Guilty Food Pleasure 

Day 26: Fictional Character You Admire 

Day 27: A Picture Of You And Your Family 

Day 28: A Picture Of What You Wore Today 

Day 29: Your Favorite Song 

Day 30: A Picture Of You From Last Year And Now. How much have you changed?

Of course I'm not limiting myself to just posting this challenge. I'll put in a few random posts here and there whenever I find the chance. Wish me luck! :D

Trending: #SomeoneLikeYou

I'm gonna try something new (again) here in this blog. So as I mentioned before in my Bible Challenge post (which I will try to continue later on), I attend a cluster group every Tuesday. Well, they also have a service for youths every Friday night called U-night. Every month, they have different series that has topics that vary from discipleship all the way to love and relationship. So I'm gonna start talking about what I learned and understood from these services. Here we go. :)

So for the month of July, the series was titled 'Trending' and each week featured a song that's popular nowadays. They were #BornThisWay by Lady Gaga (which I wasn't able to attend due to flooding near my place), #CallMeMaybe by Carly Rae Jepsen, and #SomeoneLikeYou by Adele. So I'm starting my blog off with the last segment of a series since I thought of this idea pretty late. Oh well, better late than never.

So the night started off with praise and worship as always, starting off with Go and Chosen Generation and ending with my favorite song, Unending Love. It felt really good to sing along to songs that I knew, and it really got me into the mood to listen. As we took our seats, the hosts mentioned that for some of the first timers there, they might be wondering 'Who is this God that they are worshiping?' and they cited a bible verse to answer just that. 

13Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, 'The God of your fathers has sent me to you,' and they ask me, 'What is his name?' Then what shall I tell them?"
14God said to Moses, "I am who I am. This is what you say to the Israelites: 'I am has sent me to you.'"

Exodus 3:13-14

Then they had a short game with the audience. Some people came up on the stage to sing or dance to a few popular songs. After some time, the music team went back on stage to perform Someone Like You by Adele. 

One of the first things they mentioned was that 'Everyone is in a search to be complete.' I was completely stricken by that single phrase. That was exactly how I felt. I mean, I know that I'm incomplete. I needed someone to help me with that. So I was amazed that this was the topic. And this line sparked a new question that almost everyone has asked themselves at least once in their lives: 'Who will complete me?'

The bible passage that was read that night was the story of Adam and Eve, found in Genesis 2:18-22. As the first line said, God was to create a helper for man. At first, it may seem a little sexist to say that women are just helpers to man, it also shows that in fact, man need help. So if any women are out there reading this, feel complimented by it, not insulted. Notice also in this line, God said "I will make..." A question that may pop into ones mind is 'Why does God need to make again? How come God didn't create woman on the 6th day, along with man?' Well the answer to that is kind of simple. It's because God created man as complete. Everyone is already complete. It's just that it would be better if man had a companion, right?

The second part of the reading that they emphasized was that God put Adam into a 'deep sleep'. Well the obvious reason for God to do that was so that Adam wouldn't have a panic attack while his rib was being taken out of his body. I mean, who in their right mind would want to be awake while that was happening? Well certainly not me. But that's beside the point. The real reason was because during that time that Adam was asleep, God was creating Adam's love story. As they said that night, God is more excited for our love story than even we are. God puts us to sleep to get us ready for the one that is meant for us. So all the time we are spending waiting for the right one to come along can be likened to the time that Adam was asleep. "Relationships are best experienced when character is properly built." This line just means that a relationship will most likely fail unless both sides are ready. It's not about the right time or right person, but if both are ready. I mean, what's the use of finding the right person at the right time if you're not mature enough to handle a relationship?

"...Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires."

Song of Solomon 8:4

Think of it this way. 1 x 1 = 1 right? That's a well known mathematical fact. But what's the use if your significant other is already complete (meaning that they have already built their character) if you aren't? 1 multiplied with any fraction is still a fraction, not a whole. To make a relationship work, both have to be ready. So there really is no reason to rush into things. It's better to just wait and see what God has in store for each and every one of us.

So what does this mean? This means that instead of what I've been doing this past year, I should just sit tight and wait. I know to myself that I'm not mature enough to be in a relationship again, so I'm just gonna wait until I am. And how are we to know when we're ready? Well, we'll know when we know it. It's just something that we'll feel eventually.

And to end this post, here's a verse that may help us know if we're complete already:

"and you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority."

Colossians 2:10

Life in our Laughs

Well here's a descriptive essay I made for my ENGLCOM class back in my third term. I feel like it can be improved upon, but I guess it's fine. Well, I hope you enjoy reading this. :)

My view faded in from black as I opened my eyes to find my mother gently shaking me awake. She unstrapped my seat belt and lifted me up out of the car seat and set me down onto the pavement, holding my hand as we sauntered towards the sound of children laughing and screaming in delight as they played. As we approached, structures of different shapes and sizes loomed over me, some smooth and straight while others with various loops and twists embedded in the figures. I stood in awe as I stared intently at the area that opened itself up before me. Suddenly, I felt a tug on my hand pulling me towards a cluster of picnic tables on a bed of grass. My mom placed her bag on top of a wooden table nearby and took out a pocketbook to read. She gestured that I was allowed to go back to the figures that had piqued my interest. I inched my way towards the group of structures, unsure of what they were for. Some children were flying through the air, only to come back down again. Others swiftly glided towards the earth at an alarming rate. I caught a glimpse of a few kids swinging from place to place, and a few others that stayed in one place but instead moved up and down. The amount of activity surrounding me was overwhelming, but I caught hold of myself. As I gazed at what lay before me, I saw scenes of my life flash before me. I saw everything that has happened and all that was yet to come, all within a blink of an eye. I saw my life through this playground.

Curious and excited, I strode towards a group of children nearby, hoping to learn more about the area I was entering. I saw shovels and pails of different shapes and sizes, some packed filled with sand. I took in a view filled with towers, castles, bridges, and moats, varying in complexity from a simple cylinder to a complex maze of figures. I seated myself next to an older child who obviously knew what he was doing and watched intently as he built more and more structures just out of sand. A shovel in one hand and a small bucket in the other, I observed how he came to create the various buildings that surrounded him. He packed down a pile of sand into his bucket and once he was satisfied by his work, he would tip the contents out, give his bucket a light tap, and lift it up to reveal something new. I figured that in this enclosed pen, nothing was impossible. You could create anything and everything, as long as you can picture it in your mind. The amount of ideas your imagination could come up with was practically limitless, and they all came from something unexpected – a pile of formless sand. I was in the sandbox, the place where all of my ideas begin.

I rose up and moved elsewhere, intrigued by what was causing the other children to run around when they could be sitting in the sandbox as well. I saw children flying up through the air, their hair flowing behind them as they moved. The chains supporting them were slightly rusted from old age, but otherwise stable. As one child went up, another came back down. Other children were already lined up, standing behind those in flight, ready to give them a boost back up. While some had helpers to go higher, others could support themselves. The ones that reached the highest point let out a squeal of delight as they descended back down. I waited my turn, and when I got on, a feeling of relief surged through my body. I felt the wind in my hair and the rush of the earth moving away from me. I reached the top and, for a split second, felt like I was at the top of the world. Then I came back down to earth, learning that even the most joyful moments of someone's life isn't for forever. The ups and downs of life started at the swings.

More kids were running around, and I looked over to see what all the fuss was about. A long line started forming at the base of the steps but the movement was constant. The children went up one after another and, after a few seconds, came running past to line up again. When I reached the head of the line, I cautiously climbed up. When I reached the top, I suddenly felt nervous. Before me was a steep slope of shiny metal gleaming in the sun. The kid behind me urged me to sit down and just go for it, but a part of me was hesitant to take the fall. Eventually, I gave in and took a seat. I let gravity pull me down and my breath be taken away from me. Within a few seconds, I had reached the bottom. I looked up and wondered what made me so worried when it was actually exciting. I learned to take the plunge and find risks worth making, like the choice to get on the slide.

A couple of older kids were rushing past, and I turned to see where they were headed. I saw a skeletal structure that was tall and wide. The coat of red paint was slightly peeling off, but the figure itself was smooth. I caught a glimpse of the older kids jumping up to reach the structure. When they got hold of it, they started swing their bodies forward and back. One of them suddenly let one of his hands let go of the bar, but instead of falling down, he grabbed hold of the bar in front. His legs dangled as he made an effort to keep his grip. The other one wasn't as strong. As she let go of the bar with one hand, she came plummeting down to the ground. She stood up and dusted herself off then walked back to the end where she jumped up again. She grabbed the bar and hoisted herself up again, and started swing like before. She gained momentum before she had the courage to let go and grab the next. She kept repeating this process until she reached the end. When she finally reached the end, she let out a sigh of relief and let go, a broad smile splashed on her face. Not everything in life is easy to get. Some might make you fall, but you just have to stand yourself back up and try again. The feeling of accomplishment you get when you attained your goal is overwhelming, like the first time you completed the monkey bars.

I turned around and found my mother waving, calling me towards her. I sprinted towards her and leaped into her arms. She gently lifted me up and carried me to the car. I felt my eyes get heavy as I sat in the car seat. Flashbacks of my day flooded my mind. I saw the sandbox and the ideas that seemed to form from nothing. I imagined the swings, the ups and downs of life, and the constant they had in common that was change. I pictured the slide and the plunge I took to realize what I was missing. I felt the pull of gravity on me as I swung on the monkey bars, reaching for my goals that were hard to achieve. I blinked and tugged on the seat belt. I shut the door behind me and walked around to the driver seat. I inserted the key, gave it a quick turn, and started the engine. I turned to look at the backseat and saw my child dozing soundly in her car seat. I smiled as I turned back to the front and drove off down the road back home.

LSS: This is what dreams are made of

Since I haven't blogged in a very long time, I guess I'm gonna start off again by making a new segment called Last Song Syndrome or LSS. I'll just make a review about a random song that's stuck in my head for no apparent reason.

So the other day, during our make up class for ENGLRES, I got really bored. As in REALLY bored. So I started singing, even though the professor was sitting at the front of the room. I think this song popped into my head because one of my classmates remembered it when she read the title of one of my posts, "What if?". I dunno how she thought of that, since it was kinda far from the song lyrics, but oh well.

This song is from one of my favorite movies when I was a kid, called the Lizzie McGuire Movie. It was about Lizzie going on a school trip and being mistaken for a local popstar that just dyed her hair. She went all over Italy, avoiding their strict teacher/chaperon, and with the help of her best friend, she managed to get away with it too. Near the end of the movie, there was a concert that she had to participate in, and this is the song that they had to sing. It's really catchy, but the lyrics are a little too kiddy-ish for my taste now. Before, I loved this song and I would sing it over and over again. Well now, I have LSS. Oh joy.

Well even though the lyrics are simple, it still has a nice message, unlike those "songs" that they play on the radio nowadays. Here they are: 

What Dreams are Made Of - Hillary Duff Lyrics

Have you ever seen such a beautiful night?

I could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright

When I see you smiling I go, oh, oh, oh

I would never want to miss this

'Cause in my heart I know what this is

Hey now, hey now

This is what dreams are made of

Hey now, hey now

This is what dreams are made of

I've got somewhere I belong

I've got somebody to love

This is what dreams are made of

This is what dreams are made of

Have you ever wondered what life is about?

You could search the world and never figure it out

You don't have to sail the oceans, no, no, no

Happiness is no mystery

It's here and now it's you and me, yeah

Hey now, hey now

This is what dreams are made of

Hey now, hey now

This is what dreams are made of

I've got somewhere I belong

I've got somebody to love

This is what dreams are made of

Open your eyes

(This is what dreams are made of)

Shout to the skies

(This is what dreams are made of)

When I see you smiling, I go, oh oh oh

Yesterday my life was duller

Now everything's technicolor

Hey now, hey now

This is what dreams are made of

Hey now, hey now

This is what dreams are made of

I've got somewhere I belong

I've got somebody to love

This is what dreams, dreams

This is what dreams are made of

(Hey now, hey now)

Hey now

This is what dreams

(Hey now, hey now)

(This is what dreams)

What dreams are made of

Bible Challenge: Day 1

This Monday, I had a one 2 one session that was about Bible and Prayer. Now you may be asking “What is one 2 one?” right now. Well it’s kind of like a bible study thing, but instead of being by groups, it’s just between two people, making it more intimate. One 2 one is like the basics when it comes to Christian living and stuff like that. It can be likened to arithmetic for math, or the alphabet for reading. So yeah, it’s the stepping stones towards a relationship with God.

With that cleared up, back to the bible and prayer. My cluster leader, who is also the one who is having one 2 one with me, challenged me to see if I could read the Bible every day for two weeks. It doesn't have to be a lot, but just enough for me to get used to it. They say that the Bible is God’s way to communicate with us, like prayer is for us. So the more you read it, the more you can learn and understand God. So here goes: Day 1.

Genesis 1:1 – 2:25

This is the creation story, one of the most well-known stories in the entire Bible. It starts off with the famous line “In the beginning…” emphasizing that God was already there before anything and everything. He created everything out of nothing. We created the earth, the seas, the skies, the ground, and everything around us. Look around you. There’s nothing that didn’t come from God. He is our creator. He even created us, human beings, and we should be blessed that God made us in His image.

Matthew 1:1 – 2:12

In align with the creation story in the Old Testament, Matthew starts off the New Testament with the birth of Jesus Christ, our Savior. From the very beginning, we could already see who the true worshippers of God were when the Magi went all that way to bring the child gifts of gold, incense, and myrrh. It just goes to show that if you are really love God, you would do anything for Him.

Psalm 1:1-6

The main point that I got from this is that God will guide those that will do the right thing for Him. Plain and simple.

Proverbs 1:1-6

Before and After

I didn't go home for the weekends this week since I had so much to do. Community service orientation. Props making. College government pictorial. Sleepovers. Community service. Math and stat camp. Note card making. Pre-activity requirements. Eat. Sleep.

Yep, that was pretty much my entire weekend wrapped up in a nutshell. I don't understand why or how my schedule got this hectic, but this just means I need to manage my time better. I need to balance out my academics with my social life, Math Circle, CGS, Pump Up, and more. Oh joy.

Well anyways, I feel REALLY happy about I've done. I've been pretty productive these past few days (except for the fact that I haven't been able to work on my note cards a lot [I'll get to that later on today].) so I had some time to play around and goof off. I played some games when my friends came over to visit, and I even had time to browse YouTube for a while (which I rarely have time to do nowadays). But this Sunday, I decided to be more productive. So I cleaned up my condo. ^^

As you can see, my condo looked like a total pigsty. And I don't deny that. I mean, come on. It's obvious that a slob inhabits the place. So how did I get started? Simple. I threw everything on the floor and started sorting them all out. And no, I haven't started cleaning yet when I took the before picture. I may have gotten the sniffles because of all the dust in my condo, but I'd say that it was well worth it to finally see my floor once again. :')

Thinking

I haven't been able to blog in such a long time. My schedule's getting kinda hectic. Well I'm back and as nocturnal as ever, so here's another post! *fanfare*

Well earlier today, I was just browsing some videos on YouTube and I stumbled upon a new cover video by Alex Goot. He was covering the song "Good Time" by Owl City and Carly Rae Jepsen, which is a pretty catchy song by one of my favorite bands. Alex's performance was spectacular as always, giving a refreshing vibe to this upbeat song, but what caught my attention the most was the band playing along side him. So I clicked the link found on the video and found myself at the YouTube channel of a band from New York by the name of Against the Current.

I checked out what they had and saw that they haven't uploaded a lot, so I wasn't expecting much. But once I clicked their newest video, I was mind-blown. They sounded great! I was amazed by the fact that they aren't well known yet. You can even compare them to some famous bands out there (one of which would be Paramore, which also has a female lead vocalist). So I've been playing this song non-stop for the past hour now.

And for anyone that wants to just read the lyrics, I typed it up for you. I figured it was worth it, since the song's pretty catchy.

Thinking - Against the Current Lyrics

You took my hand and you never let go
Well I was so sure but now I just don't know
You've got me thinking
You've got me thinking about you

Because you
You played my heart
Took my love
Did you plan this from the start?

Chorus:
Stop!
Just take a while
I won't wait another night
For you to call
Cause lately I've been thinking
That these fights
They don't mean a thing to me
Who are you to be the
Judge of what I should be

And here we go yeah we're at it again
Wish I could say that we were more than friends
Cause I've been dreaming
I've been dreaming about you
[About you]

Because you
You played my heart
Took my love
Did you plan this from the start?

And if I could do it over again
I'd do anything to be yours in the end

Chorus (x2)

When I looked into your eyes
I saw what we should be
[Saw what we should be]
You may not care anymore
But you meant everything to me

Stop!
Just take a while
I won't wait another night
For you to call
Cause lately I've been thinking
These fights
They don't
Don't mean a thing to...

Chorus (2x)

What if?

Have you ever wondered what would happen if you died? Not about whether there's a heaven or hell, but more on what you would leave behind. The people you knew. The people who knew you. Your parents. Your brothers. Your sisters. Your friends. Your best friends. Your neighbors. Everyone. How would they react? How would they take the news? Would they cry? Would they laugh? Would they even care?

Lately, I've been feeling pretty neglected. Yeah, I can still feel that some people care about me, but what about the rest? The group of people that I call "friends" haven't been treating me that way lately. Instead, they have been users, freeloaders. And that just doesn't seem fair. I care about them. It makes me happy to see them happy, so I give them what they want. I'm not asking for anything in return, but would it hurt to say thank you? Instead of those two words, they end up asking for more.

So I gave them a place to stay during their breaks. I gave them something to do when they're bored. I let them print their assignments for free. I give them some snacks for when they get hungry. But then what? I get shoved aside. While they are all enjoying, I end up alone at the side.

So what can I do? Stay put and keep quiet. Yep, that's about it. And once they close the door behind them, I burst into tears, without them even knowing. I've gotten used to doing that lately. And if some other friends drop by, I can quickly regain my composure without them suspecting a thing. I can't let them know. There's no point in worrying them about anything. I can handle it.

Well here's my situation. I have a feeling that if I suddenly died, everyone would be shocked. A few might cry, but probably not a lot. But after a few weeks, a group of people might start to feel my absence. Especially because they no longer have a place to stay and play. Wow huh? THAT'S their priority. I dunno if I'm just over reacting, but I really think that some people might just miss my condo more than me. And that's gotta suck on my part.

I have some emo-ish tendencies, so I've had a few suicidal thoughts lately. I wanna test my theory as to which they prefer - the condo or the owner. But I'm not that stupid. Yeah, I may try it out a bit, but I'd never pull through with it. That would just be a waste. I think.

If by any chance someone concerned reads this, please don't worry. Just forget what you read and continue on with your life. :)

Twinkle Twinkle

It's a Monday. You have an assignment that's due next week. You think to yourself, Seven days is pretty long. I have plenty of time to finish this assignment in time and you end up doing other stuff like going out with friends to watch a movie or play games at home. A few days pass and a friend of yours asks about the assignment. You reply that you haven't started, but say that you're gonna start in a little while. The weekend arrives and you tell yourself that you're gonna finish it so that you don't have to worry about it anymore. You sit down at your desk and get distracted by the computer. It's now Sunday night. You start panicking and rush to finish the assignment. You just realized that the assignment is really long. It takes you hours to finish it, well past your bedtime. By the time you finish, you're dead tired and fall asleep as soon as your head hits your pillow.

Does that story seem familiar? Well that's a classic procrastinating story. Alright, it's MY story. Like right now. Minus the falling asleep part though. I really am an insomniac.

Does that explain why I haven't been able to post anything lately? I hope it does. Whenever I thought of posting this weekend, I reminded myself that I have stuff to do. So I'd try to finish it all up, but end up doing something stupid like watching a bunch of YouTube videos or playing Solitaire. So in other words, I wasted all my time, so I ended up cramming.

But honestly, who DOESN'T procrastinate? Or at least who hasn't tried it? I'm pretty sure almost everyone has done that already. I mean, a student's life isn't complete unless they've procrastinated at least once. And as a college student, cramming and procrastinating are my best friends. I do it almost every time there's an assignment. Most of the time, I do them just an hour before it's due. I dunno why though. I know that it's not healthy to procrastinating since I'll end up stressing over stuff, but I still do it. I guess I've gotten used to it. Time to add cramming to my list of things I need to fix.

A word of advice from someone who knows: DON'T PROCRASTINATE. Yep, that means you, my dear reader. So ask yourself. Do you have anything you have to do right now? If you answered yes, then go do it! Don't copy me. Trust me on that.

So wondering where the twinkle twinkle title came from? Well it's because I procrastinated my ENGLRES note card making. We were given two weeks to research on our topics and make a bunch of note cards. Guess what my topic is. :> Yeah, my topic is about stars. So I just spent my last few hours reading and writing about supernovas, black holes, neutron stars, and galaxies. And now I think I'm seeing stars. I crammed a lot and stopped after 22 note cards. I hope that's enough for now.

Nice Nails

For the past few months, I've been experimenting with my nails and stuff and decided to take pictures of what I've made. And since I have just started blogging, I figured I should start posting my nails here. So this is gonna be the start of a new segment that I will call "Nice Nails". While I'm experimenting, I'll also post my old designs just for the heck of it. So here's a sample of what I've done so far.

As you can see, my designs aren't that clean. Like I said earlier, I just started designing my nails a few months ago, so cut me some slack. I still have a lot to learn, but I'm hoping that I'll at least improve little by little with each design.

Just to make this clear, not all of the designs I have are original. I get a few ideas from YouTube, especially from cutepolish's channel. Her step-by-step tutorials really helped. You can see what designs she has here.

So just stay tuned to some of my posts. :)

Users

User. There are many definitions for this word. But in general, it just means "someone who uses something". Plain and simple. It's usually connected with another word to describe someone, such as a magic-user for some games. But if you think about it, there's a deeper meaning to this four-letter word. People are known to be "users". But what does this mean?

Imagine being in class. When the teacher announces that there is group or pairs work, the person behind you would suddenly tap you in the back and ask to be partners. Since you see that everyone else already has partners, you agree. That person would stand up and pull a chair close to you. And during the entire activity, he/she would just watch you. They would ask a random question every now and then regarding what you're doing, but wouldn't pay attention to your answer. Instead, they would just play with their hair or doodle. No contributions whatsoever. And after all that, they would insist that their name would be written first. He/she would take the paper and pass it to the teacher, probably as a compensation for not actually helping.

Now THAT is what you call a user.

Did anyone particular come to mind when you read that? Well, a few people popped into my mind while I was typing that. I've been a victim of a user's laziness. I remember many group projects when only a couple of us actually worked while the rest were just there as spectators. And trust me when I say this: I does NOT feel good to be used. I mean, who would like that?

Well lately, I've been feeling pretty USED. My friends come over to my place all the time just to play, sleep, or just chill, even when I'm out. I've been pretty busy lately with stuff like my academics and activities from my professional organization at school, but my friends have been pretty relaxed. That's why they're just at my place during breaks. While they're off playing around, I'm busy stressing myself out with extracurricular activities. Doesn't that seem kinda unfair?

So why don't I just leave them be and ban them from my condo? Well that's easier said than done. I have this fear of being alone (weird seeing that I'm living alone right now) and I get a feeling that if I don't let them get what they want, my friends might leave me. You might be thinking now "If they leave you, they're not your real friends and they aren't worth it." but again, when you're scared of being alone, you won't care if they're true friends or not. What's the difference as long as you have people around you, right?

Thankfully, a few of my friends noticed how I felt and decided to approach me about all this. I shrugged it all of and explained my part of the story and how I couldn't do much about the current situation. They recommended that I just talk to my friends about it, but I chose not to follow. Unlike most people, I can't bring myself to confront anyone about an issue that only concerns me. If it wasn't my condo but a friend of mine, it would be a lot easier to talk about it, but sadly, that isn't the case.

I'm not one to complain to their faces, so that's why I just vent it all out with my other friends or here. They probably won't read this blog anyways, so I'm not worried. And if ever they do read this particular post, I'd like it better if they just disregard everything they just read. I don't care if I'm being used. I don't want them to change because of something I said. If they were to change, I want it to come completely from them. I don't wanna be the bad guy though, so I'll just shut up now.

A little variety of screams

Oh hey! Look at that. My wish came true. While I was in my Theology class, the prof announced that classes were suspended starting at 1PM. Which meant that I didn't have math class anymore. Yay! So what was the first thing I did when I got back to my condo? Of course I took a nap. I mean, come on. I didn't sleep well the night before, so I might as well catch up on a few z's.

What's funny was that most of my friends didn't stay at my place. I'm guessing it's due to the fact that we hid our copy of Super Smash Bros. Brawl (see my previous posts for more info), so they had nothing to do here. A few of them came over either way, probably just for the air conditioning in my condo. They ended up watching a few episodes of House instead of playing. After a while, they decided to play a different game to pass the time. While they were playing, I fell asleep, so I have no idea how long they played. I kinda got worried that they might get addicted to a new game, but I didn't let it go to my head.

Even though only two days have passed, It's still fun to see my friend complaining about how much they miss playing Super Smash Bros. It makes me realize how addicted they really were. When they couldn't find the game on Monday, they started opening all of the game cases in my condo, thinking that maybe I just hid it from them. When we broke the "news" that his little brother was looking for the game, they decided to just watch a movie instead. Since we weren't with them when they found out, we couldn't see how they reacted. Too bad. It must've been a funny sight.

When I heard of how they responded, it triggered the part of me that is kind of sadistic. It felt fun to watch them suffer. I mean, they HAVE been kinda abusive when it came to my condo just to play, even when I wasn't around. So I figured that they deserve a break from playing Super Smash Bros., even if it's just for a while. Our plan is for just a week, but seeing as how they reacted, I MIGHT extend it.

What's the most fun with our little game of hide-and-seek? It's when my friend and I can play Super Smash Bros. all we want at night, and they don't even have a clue. It seems more fun to play something that they can't play. It's like a child enjoying their toy because his/her friends don't have it.

During the night, we even ended up inviting a few of his friends over to play a few games. It seemed more enjoyable when it isn't the same voices screaming about the game, since my friends' screams were getting a little repetitive. We ended up playing well past 12am. I guess I prefer variety when I hear screams from my friends.

Rainy Days and Tuesdays

Just the other day, I was busy ranting about how my body clock won't let me fall asleep. Well now I can't STAY asleep either. -_- Whoop-dee-doo. I only had 4 hours of sleep til I woke up. And once I'm awake, there's no going back to dreamland. So here I am, stuck with nothing to do on a rainy Tuesday. And here's the best part: I woke up at 6AM, but my class doesn't start until 11AM. So that's 5 hours of pure boredom on my part. That's kinda why I decided to just type. And type. And type some more.

You might ask: What is this post about? Well I'll tell you this. It's about nothing in particular. I'm not gonna handle any specific topic in this post. This is just cause of my boredom. So if you don't like posts that have no meaning, just keep scrolling (or clicking) away.

So what am I gonna talk about? Here it is: Random shit. Yep, that's right. This is gonna be a post where I just rant about my life and how bored I am. Exciting right? Yeah, I know you're interested. Deep, deep, DEEP down inside you're just dying to know more about me and how I have the sniffles today. So worry not, I shall not disappoint in providing you an insight as to what I am thinking as of now and other trivial matters. And like it or not, you ARE gonna like this post.

So. Hmm. Well, it's a Tuesday. And it's raining. And I have the sniffles. *Achoo*

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Okay, this is harder than I thought. ANYWAYS. Let me just talk about what I've done lately. 

So you're probably aware that it's already July. Yep, June has already come and gone, and a new month lies in wait for us. And what's the first thing that comes to my mind when I hear "July"? Of course it would be the 4th of July! I know I'm currently residing in the Philippines, but that won't stop my from celebrating with the rest of my home country. Even my condo unit has a sorta patriotic feel to it. Garlands outline the border of my entertainment system, flashing red, white, and blue. My right hand is also sporting a red, white, and blue design (which I just painted this morning when I woke up).

What else is new? Well I guess that the fact that it's pouring outside this early is something worthwhile to talk about. I mean, it's been pretty hot out lately, so the sudden rain is a nice change. I guess this marks the start of the rainy season here. And, as a student, that means only one thing: CLASS SUSPENSIONS. I'm guessing that almost every student that has class today is praying for an announcement of some sort so that they have a reason to just kick back and relax at home. Even if I'm bored out of my mind here, I want to hear those sweet words that I can keep myself glued to my sofa. I mean who wants to have class? o.O

Honestly, I think it's harder to blog about nothing than to just come up with a topic. It's kinda hard to just write without heading anywhere with it. Or maybe it's just because I'm too sleepy to think? I dunno. Oh well. I guess I'll stop for now and write more when I can think straight again. Thanks for reading even though it was kinda a waste of your time. ☺

"Campers" at my place.

You guys know the game Super Smash Bros.? Of course you do. I mean who doesn't? They have various versions for the different consoles available, like Melee for the Gamecube and Brawl for the Wii. The Super Smash Bros. series is a pretty big name for Nintendo, considering the fact that they combined characters and items from different games and mashed them up to create one fighting-style game that meets the tastes of almost all gamers.

Many characters came from well known titles, like Pokemon, Legend of Zelda, Kirby, Metal Gear, and of course, Super Mario. But aside from those, Super Smash Bros. introduced us to the not-so-famous characters like Ike, Marth, Pit, R.O.B., and the classic Mr. Game and Watch. Items and stages also came from various games, such as Animal Crossing and Ice Climber. So to sum it all up, Super Smash Bros. is like a hotpot of Nintendo titles for gamers of all different walks of life.

Sound interesting? Well it is, especially to my friends. Okay, maybe "interesting" is an understatement. My friends are complete ADDICTS. Trust me when I say this, I am not exaggerating anything. We had our hell week last week (which consisted of four quizzes. Talk about hectic.) and instead of studying during our breaks, they ended up visiting me in my condo just so they could play. And I'm pretty sure that each and every one of them has woken me up early one day just so they could practice in my condo.

It's easy to tell if they're playing in my condo. Once you get off the elevator on my floor, you will start to hear screaming and yelling coming from your right. That's my friends. I don't really get why they get so hyped up over this game. I mean, yeah, it's exciting. But after a while, the excitement dies down. Well I guess it's an exception for them.

Because of how addicted they were, my friend and I decided to "play a little game" with them. We hid the game in his condo (which is just upstairs from my place) and we told them that his little brother was looking for it so they took it back. So as I'm writing about this, we're in his condo while the rest of our friends are downstairs in my place. We have no idea what they're doing right now, but I'm gonna have to guess that they are either bored or they found a new game to play. I guess we'll just have to see. But a week without it shouldn't be too hard, right?

Tick Tock: My Body Clock

So it's about 5am and I still have class later on at 9:40. And I'm still wide awake. What's up with that? I've been getting used to sleeping this late, but I don't think this is healthy. At all. Well, I don't think I'm doing anything healthy with my body. I don't eat fruits or vegetables, and I keep eating salty foods (and I'm supposed to be on a NO sodium diet, mind you. But what my doctor doesn't know won't hurt her). So if I'm so unhealthy, why am I worrying about it now?

Well since this is a blog and I know that no one's gonna answer my question, I might as well answer it myself. It's cause this sleep thing is affecting almost everything that I do. My academics are going down the drain cause I end up sleeping in class. I lose time to do my assignments cause I don't feel like doing anything productive at this hour.

Okay, this is bad. (No duh?) I don't know what I'm supposed to do with myself anymore. See, this is kinda the reason why I decided to make a blog again. I can't sleep at night (or early morning) so I end up doing useless things like playing solitaire. So I figured I might as well spill out all that I'm thinking of into this blog.

Is this what they call insomnia? I guess I should add this to my list of abnormalities that I have. This whole thing just feels weird. I know that I WANT to sleep, yet I'm not sleepy at all. I can feel myself being tired under all this, but at the same time, my body just feels restless. It's telling me that I still have enough energy to keep moving around, and I can't fight it, no matter how tired my mind is.

Sorry about my mindless ranting. I forgot that it's 5am and you're probably too tired to worry about this. Oh yeah, this is a blog, you could still read this during the daytime. Oh well. Time to close my eyes and try to sleep. Wish me luck.

And if for some reason you're also having a hard time falling asleep, here are some sheep for you to count. Hope it helps. ^^

Need for Speed: Internet and Computers

The internet. In modern times, it has become a staple to many. Few can stand a day without going online to check their Yahoo! mail, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, etc. Not only does it serve as a method of communication, but it is also a source of entertainment. YouTube and 9gag are but a couple of sites that internet users check regularly for that reason. But things weren't always like this.

Remember the times when we would call our friends over the phone just to chat with them? Remember when kids ran outside to play? What ever happened to those times? Now, a conversation is just a click away, and kids stay indoors to play mindless games online. Am I the only one misses the good old days when a friend would come over just to play ball with you? Those kinds of moments seem pretty rare nowadays.

When computers and the internet were new concepts, everyone gathered around and was amazed by the simple acts of getting emails or watching something online. Life was simple, like the games of solitaire and minesweeper. But as the years went by, the technology grew and developed. Social networking sites expanded, videos became clearer, and games evolved. From the simple email, we moved on to Facebook, where we could post whatever we want to share with our friends. From card games and pinball, we now have Minecraft, Skyrim, and other games with much better graphics (alright, Minecraft doesn't count).

What once amazed us now makes us cringe. The simple things in life became obsolete. As the technology advanced, our standards rose. Dial-up became trash; using emails became old-school. And what many complain about nowadays is the speed of their internet. No one is satisfied with 1-2 kbps (which is my receive rate at times). Everyone wants faster internet.

And if it isn't the internet they are worried about, it's the machine in general. People need to buy the expensive brands for better video cards and processors. It's all about the quality and speed.

Well remember those times that I described earlier? Those were the times we didn't need all this. We didn't worry about the brand of our computers and the speed of our broadband. We didn't need all these fancy gadgets to survive. What ever happened to those times, when we didn't rely on technology as much? Is it just me, or are we getting too attached to these luxuries?

I'm not trying to be a hypocrite. I myself use the internet almost everyday. I use gadgets to play games all the time. I'm just questioning myself. Do we really need all this? Why don't you question yourself as well? When was the last time you went outside just to play around? When did you not worry about if you had enough money to play at the computer shop? When did you not complain about the slow internet connection? When did you say no to your parents' offer to buy you a new laptop?

When were you satisfied with what you already have, and didn't ask for more?

Here I go again...

So. We meet again. -_-

I've already tried countless times to make a blog, diary, journal, or whatever. But for some reason, I could never bring myself to continue writing. After a couple of posts, it would just slip my mind. After a few weeks, I would forget my usernames and passwords, and that blog would be just another thing of the past. Well I'm gonna try again, and I hope that this time, it would last a little longer (I hope).

Let me get this out there: I'm weird, abnormal, bipolar, emotional, problematic, lovesick, and anything far from average. So if you're expecting a blog about normal people living their normal lives, you've come to the wrong place. Another thing: I am almost NEVER consistent. I write about almost anything that I can think of. So don't be surprised if you see one entry about video games and the next about nail art. I'm about as random as a kangaroo covered with chocolate fudge. Deal with it.

So what should you expect from me? Expect posts about video games, nail art, food, music, and more. You can also expect a few stories from me, whether it's about my daily life, past life, or just some random words put together. Warning: I have a tendency to write emo-ish posts too. ^^ Just remember this. Expect the unexpected.

Well I suck with introductions and stuff like that, so just learn more about me with my posts. Either way, I doubt many are gonna come across this blog, so I don't have to worry much. Just sit back and relax, and enjoy the randomness that is me. 

And for your entertainment, here's a picture of a chicken crossing a road. At least the chicken knows how to cross a road by itself. I would've been roadkill. >.<